I received some amazing comments on my original post.
I am still getting them and reading each. It has been an amazing help.
One recurring theme people have mentioned as relief for anxiety/depression is physical exercise.
I fully agree this is important. I walk a LOT right now. It's mostly out of nerves, but I think it has kept me very active. An average day I will walk perhaps 3-5 miles.. somewhat at a brisk pace. Often my nights are spent walking around the city at a fast pace to wear myself down. Especially from sundown until about 1:00 AM. I am actually the most fit I have been in many years.. though I smoke like an absolute fiend lately.
My other form of exercise is skateboarding. I grew up as a skater. It is one of the only things in life that brought me actual happiness. Something about the feel of rolling, learning tricks, style, all. it is also very good exercise... A mix of nearly every muscle and hard cardio.
Well I am 32 now and took many years off. I'm not quite the punk skater I once was (though at heart I never lost a beat). Little heavier.. little slower.. less flexible... but apparently just as fearless.
Last Sunday I was very anxious and the weather was nice. I grabbed my board and hit my new regular spot. I went at an incline on a footbridge really fast and caught a wheel on the edge of a curb. Fell forward onto my knees and hands. A trip to the emergency room.. road rash and rocks stuck in mt hands.. broken left thumb (my typing is a bit slow).. and scraped knee.
So I made a valiant effort at using exercise, but I am out of commission for a few weeks. Living alone and being bandaged ain't a fun time.
I thought you were supposed to add insult to injury? Guess i got it backwards.. added injury to insult.
"The perversity of the universe tends towards a maximum"